Thursday, June 17, 2010


There are tons of dates out there...birthdays, anniversaries, due dates, holidays, mothers day, fathers day, flag day, whatever...that we all remember in our head and now I have one more. The 17th. Two months ago today my mom passed away. It is also exactly one more month until BZ is suppose to be here.

It has been a roller coaster couple months. Since the service I have been up and down, but most days do pretty good. There are other days where I think about her and really miss her and then start crying.

While I was talking to my sister the other day, she mentioned how she had had a bad day and wanted to call her and talk to her about it. I think about those days too. My sister and I use to call her a lot. For me, most weeks it was anywhere from 2-5 times per week, just to talk, to say hi and tell her what was going on, what was bothering me, what some word meant in a recipe, all sorts of random stuff. I told my sister that she could always call me now. Not that I could answer all sorts of questions for her, but I could surely be there for her to vent or whatever.

I seem to call my sister now all the time...asking a new baby question each time I call and she has been more than happy to help out.

These past two months have been difficult, some days are great while others are not. I can only imagine that as time passes you have fewer and fewer not so great days and more and more better ones.


Krista said...

Very well put. I hope those better days become more and more as well. Just remember you can call me any time day or night for anything!!!! Love you!

Life on the Cremona said...

it's so hard and that's ok. you don't need to move on so soon. i hope happy memories and her smile wil ease your heartache. gosh, what a love you dolgas women have for each other! :)